Maybe you’re like me. Maybe every day in some way you feel like a newly fallen turnip. A rookie. A beginner. A little wet behind the ears. When I had a baby, I glanced over my shoulder to discover regurgitated breast milk dripping down my back. That’s when everything — not just motherhood — seemed a little more important. A little more up in a ponytail. A little more up in the air.

Posts Tagged "grace"

Presbyterian minister and author Timothy Keller has written, “Human beings are hope-shaped creatures. The way you live now is completely controlled by what you believe about your future.” Think about that for a moment. Is this true? You get up, go to work. Maybe you believe your future holds career achievement. A stable retirement. A…   read more

A Way Made

April 2015 Last week, I heard a friend say that God isn’t afraid of us. That was so interesting to me. I thought about it for a whole week. God isn’t afraid. Of us. I, for one, am very afraid of us. I see a future ablaze with fire, a world melting into the pit;…   read more

The Chrysalis Effect

(Chatter Editor Letter, October 2013) You might have heard of the butterfly effect, but I’ve been enamored recently with something I can only dub the “chrysalis effect.” Chrysalis: just a fancy term for a butterfly’s cocoon, the gold pupa that breaks apart to deliver the fluttering wings and buzzing legs and fuzzy body we love…   read more

The March Easter Muddle

I was appalled in mid-January when I received a catalog advertising Easter decorations. I had just swept the last of my Christmas tree needles away, and was proud of myself for just putting up some Valentine’s window decals. “I’m not ready for this,” I thought. Easter, you need to pack up your moss and Cadbury…   read more

Sick Again? Seek again. (Chatter Letter from the editor, February 2013)

During one of the first years we really started observing Lent at IBC, I was pregnant with my son Drew. He was the size of a lima bean in February of 2007, but he might as well have been Andre the Giant Baby. I was so, so morning sick. And so, so tired. Every day…   read more

Auditioning 101: Avoid it if You Can (And You Can’t)

The following post is part of a guest blog for my dear friend Sarah at She is kicking off a fantastic series for Creative-types to help inspire, challenge, and inform the creative process no matter what your creative outlet may be. And for you actor/singer types, you know there’s one part of the process…   read more

Shutting Down: When Mothering is Just Too Much

Have you ever completely shut down as a mother? I have. I’ve been doing it more and more these days. At the annual grandmother’s Halloween party this week, Drew flew off into a rage after missing the hayride. He had refused to go on the hayride, but the instant the big rubber wheels started rolling…   read more

Saving Seats

(Chatter Letter from the Editor, November) Have you ever fallen asleep in a chair? Maybe an airplane chair? An easy chair? Sometimes I fall asleep in theater seats, or in the passenger seat of the car, but none of those chairs compare to falling asleep in a rocking chair, or a big leather armchair by…   read more

Happy Anniversary, Dad (and IBC)

(Chatter Letter from the Editor, October) When my family showed up to the IBC parking lot 25 years ago in our long brown station wagon, I don’t think we could have imagined what awaited us. I was six, and had just left half a piece of Juicy Fruit gum under the pulled-up corner of carpet…   read more

First Things First: Drew Turns 5

On the eve of Thing One’s 5th birthday, I am reflective. I’m thinking back to the moment at 9:06 a.m. on January 18, 2007, when, alone and shaking in the bathroom, I discovered that I would be a mother. I told no one, not even Gordon. The day was chilly and rainy; a cold shock…   read more